there should be like a strip club only with hot dads in good shoes with their legs propped up on tables sipping coffee and staring at you over the tops of their glasses when you walk in
goddamn i would lose so much money
(via ignify)
letter from my heart to my brain.
Its okay to hang upside-down like a bat,
to swim into the deep end of silence,
to swallow every key so you can’t get out.
It’s okay to hear the ocean calling your fevered name
to say your sorrow is an opera of snakes,
to flirt with sharp and heartless things.
It’s okay to write, I deserve everything,
to bow down to this rotten thing
that understands you, to adore the red
and ugly queen of it, to admire
her calm and steady rowing.
It’s okay to lock yourself in the medicine cabinet,
to drink all the wine, to do what it takes to stay
without staying. Its okay to hate God today
to change his name to yours, to want to ruin all that ruined you.
It’s okay to feel like only a photograph of yourself,
to need a stranger to pull your hair and pin you down,
it’s okay to want your mother as you lie alone in bed.
It’s okay to brick to fuck to flame to church to crush to knife
to rock to rock to rock to rock to rock and rock.
It’s okay to wave good-bye to yourself in the mirror.
To write, I don’t want anything.
It’s okay to despise what you have inherited,
to feel dead in a city of pulses. It’s okay
to be the whale that never comes up for air,
to love best the taste of your own blood.
-rachel mckibbens
∞ May 22, 2013 at 07:02pm
1. Dance party with some of my very favorites from whole foods.
2. “Dear ___, you’re a psychotic bitch and I kind of worship you. Sincerely, ____.”
3. I typically let j decide what I wear.
4. Shameless Starbucks selfie.
∞ May 18, 2013 at 02:23pm
i am twelve
- j: how was your day?
- r: fine and weird. you?
- j: my days are typically the same. why was yours weird?
- r: i have too many people telling me what they think i should do.
- j: oh. i think we should just start doing hard drugs and let it go.
- //
- r: one of the baggers just said you were the nicest person in grocery!
- j: uhg
- r: hahaha
∞ May 13, 2013 at 06:22pm
Cat chat.
- C: you still at my house?
- R: si
- C: nvm
- R: I'm gonna move your hat into the shade. And steal ur tomato plant.
- C: get out of my house.
∞ May 11, 2013 at 03:08pm
Crazy couple of days.
1. Three wishes, all the way from Portland.
2. I let him read a poem I wrote.
3. An agreement.
∞ May 08, 2013 at 11:30pm
“War and Beauty”
I am so excited to announce that I posted my new series entitled “War and Beauty” on my website tonight. I haven’t worked on anything so hard in my entire life. I’m super proud of it and even more pumped for everybody to see it!
http://www.benrobertsphoto.com/#/portfolio/war-and-beauty/COVER
Ok but this is INCREDIBLE
one more reason it should be illegal to be ben roberts. too much awesome.
Letter to myself, one year ago today:
When things go sour tonight, keep these things in mind. You are about to live the most painful yet beautiful year yet. Your housing will work out and you’ll be with five of the greatest people you will ever meet in the blue ridge mountains. For the first time in your life, YOU WILL BE KNOWN (and accepted)!
You will smoke a lot of cigarettes, drink a lot of beer, skip a lot of class, live the college dream, and be a bad ass bitch.
It is going to be okay. It gets better.
Love, me.
∞ May 03, 2013 at 05:13pm
